oh how the days go by. it's already september and, thank the Lord, we've had some cooler days.
I want to praise God for His peace in my life. I've been anxious lately - mostly about things that i make up in my head. I've been having lower back pain that goes into my leg after running. I've had similar hip pain after running before, but nothing that has stayed as long as this. Here is where my anxiousness shows itself: I worry that this pain is caused by a tumor or some sort of fatal illness (namely cancer). It's a consuming worry, and I hate it. Troy reminded me tonight to take captive every thought.
the past few months have been both wonderful and difficult. i think i'm still dealing with all that happened to troy and me. we haven't told a ton of people, but we miscarried this summer. it began while we were in Costa Rica on a really great missions trip. God had his hand in surrounding us with love and support.
when we found out we were expecting i bawled my eyes out; i did the same when the miscarriage began. it's something i've always been afraid of, but never thought would happen to me. and now i think that's why my fears of other things (ie. cancer) seem like such a big possibilty. to say the least, it's been an emotional rollercoaster. i've been both brokenhearted and happy, scared and calm, questioning and thankful. in spite of everything, God is so good (all the time, all the time God is good). i want to remember his presence in my life, i need to remember it.
i have an appointment with the chiropractor this monday. hopefully the running/back pain issue can be unfolded and sorted out there. :)
finally, i don't mean to write all this for anyone to feel overly sympathetic for me. it's more therapy - it feels good to write it down and get it out.
i hope you are doing well. tell me about it.
