headless mermaid. raving lunatic. bah.
i get so frustrated sometimes with the way things are. the reality of how things appear. the appearance of whats real.. what really is reality? isn't it mostly based on perspective, is there some sort of equation. .psychological mumbojumbo.

or why do people make things up in their heads - of how things are or could be.and then its like they're stuck thinking that something untrue is truth...or stuck hoping that what isn't there will be there one day.. i don't know. it's not wrong to hope for things - but i guess thats sort of a different kind of hope. 'realistic hope' ha.

anyway, its a goal to love people this week. care for people. in a sisterly brotherly sort of way. It's hard for me to give my time to people, especially when i'm ansy to do something in particular or need to get something done...

i dont 'know. i'm gonna go for a run, listen to music.. its very calming.