creamery

I went to Happy Cow for the first time today. It was a pleasant drive along highway 25. Here's a photo of some friendly cows. I imagine they are conversing about the beautiful weather and the lovely tree shadow lying next to them. Perhaps, as Geraldine reclines comfortably next to Betty, she wonders how she will muster out the grass blade stuck between her back teeth.

Actually, while at the creamery, I had a sneak in the milking room. It was pretty interesting. The cows are milked twice a day; first in the morning at five and then in the evening - around 430. I was lucky enough to see the process. I must say though - I did feel slightly awkward when the milk doctor made some joke about the cow's teat... eeeeeeee. I know: I need to be more grownup about these things. but. um... haha.

Anyway, this was sortof the eventful - different than the norm - part of my day today. It was mostly fun going without anyone. sometimes these individual adventures are the most exciting... :)

chilly

There was a chill today; it was both wonderful and foreboding. The thought of hoodies and not being sticky in the heat makes me happy. On the other hand, being forever cold... does nothing.. for my palate. I've always found it interesting how in the summer, I forget that it becomes miserable to go outside in the cold. and vice versa - how in the winter, i forget the unbearable heat and discomfort of those hot, summer days.

"Yikes. Bikes." Guess what movie that line is from? haha.

i spelled endevour wrong. endeavor. endeavour. help. other words too. guten nacht.

new it

HA. it's a new week and already going to bed later than I should.. it is the same battle i choose not to fight but always find that I really really should have.

and the peace of God...
I'm a little nervous about this week. I have both an assignment due - that, thankfully, I've been working on - and my supervisor from Lander is also making a visit to my class - on wednesday. It makes me squirm cause I feel so unsure about managing a large group of children, particularly under the judgemental eye of the women who tells me that i can graduate or not. I can't think like that. it's too extreme. Anyway, I just hope it goes well. experience, experience, experience.

i have not spoken with any members of my family in what seems like ages. oh mom and pop. maybe they should be told about this blogging endevour... :).

i'm going to bed!

labor day

These might be little tree nuts. My nephew, Eli, likes to collect things from the yard, particularly bugs. he's going to be very knowledgeable as an adult - always asking questions and retaining facts.


ohhhh, thank God for labor day. a day off - to not really have to do anythingggg.: ). It's been awhile since i've had a day like that - completely free of any impending obligation. i don't really know if impending would be the right word to put there. it sounded suitable. smart. it might be revealing otherwise...

i feel mostly positive about my student teaching experience so far. the children really are wonderful, even if sometimes i don't know how to respond to 'misbehavior' and such. It makes a big difference if i've slept enough, as well. oh my goodness, i can't seem to go to bed before 1130. which is not only ridiculous but is also going to kill me when full time teaching begins. For the month of october, I'll be teaching this 'full - time' business. i'm nervous, i will not lie. One thing I will be is: confident. I think if you say enough times, "I am confident," it just magically happens. and everything will be fine, forever...

Also, i've decided to not let stupid things annoy me to the point of pointless reaction. and to not be jealous about things i can't change - more specifically about personal characteristics I don't have, but then see in someone else. that's always been this reoccuring plague in my life. it ends tonight. :/. or some day soon. with the help of God.. :)

final interesting fact: (you'll be blown away): i read today - in an article from nationalgeographic.com - that the tongue of a great blue whale weighs more than an .... ELEPHANT. whhhaaaaa. imagine being licked by a whole elephant..you might die. and by 'might,' i mean you would.

quote, unquote

mmm. so it's august now.. summer is closing. for me.. i start the process of student teaching - whatever that may be - in two weeks.

Tomorrow (later on this morning) my good roomate, amy, and I are driving up to chicago for a few days and then on to ohio - to stay with my parents for the rest of the week.. I'm really excited. to get away. to travel a bit. to remember there's a lot more out there. "out there." yay.

I'd like to take more pictures of things.this is something I might do on this mini-vacation. we'll see... it's usually "we'll see." hahah. quote unquote.

it's late.... the other night i was hanging out with friends - we were playing card games. and, yea, it was fun, but i really didn't like myself that evening - i felt sort of obnoxious. do you ever step outside your body and watch yourself be, just be - in several foreign, unflattering moments? that's how it was. normally, i'm fine with who I am, but once in awhile, i become this person that i wish would recoil back..

I don' t know. mummbling needs to go. :). anyway, i need to sleep... bye bye.

headless mermaid. raving lunatic. bah.
i get so frustrated sometimes with the way things are. the reality of how things appear. the appearance of whats real.. what really is reality? isn't it mostly based on perspective, is there some sort of equation. .psychological mumbojumbo.

or why do people make things up in their heads - of how things are or could be.and then its like they're stuck thinking that something untrue is truth...or stuck hoping that what isn't there will be there one day.. i don't know. it's not wrong to hope for things - but i guess thats sort of a different kind of hope. 'realistic hope' ha.

anyway, its a goal to love people this week. care for people. in a sisterly brotherly sort of way. It's hard for me to give my time to people, especially when i'm ansy to do something in particular or need to get something done...

i dont 'know. i'm gonna go for a run, listen to music.. its very calming.