headless mermaid. raving lunatic. bah.
i get so frustrated sometimes with the way things are. the reality of how things appear. the appearance of whats real.. what really is reality? isn't it mostly based on perspective, is there some sort of equation. .psychological mumbojumbo.

or why do people make things up in their heads - of how things are or could be.and then its like they're stuck thinking that something untrue is truth...or stuck hoping that what isn't there will be there one day.. i don't know. it's not wrong to hope for things - but i guess thats sort of a different kind of hope. 'realistic hope' ha.

anyway, its a goal to love people this week. care for people. in a sisterly brotherly sort of way. It's hard for me to give my time to people, especially when i'm ansy to do something in particular or need to get something done...

i dont 'know. i'm gonna go for a run, listen to music.. its very calming.

tender is a funny word.. haha. i think more people should use it. use it today.

moon dae

summer is too hot..for a car with no air con....ditioning.. oh, the philippines...bah ha.
what i would give for a greeeeen mango shake... i do not know. its a tender wish...

I started class for the full second summer session today. am feeling slightly stressed out with having so much school this summer and less time for work.. i guess, I realize its just this time of my life or whatever.. maybe it's also a part of learning to trust in God's provision - or realizing he's the one that provides for everything anyway..
wow, i need to be more aware and thankful for that.

one weekend

i'm pooped. its saturday. and i finally don't have anything to do... its been busy this past week - school, work, meeting. meeting is singular - yes, but i've found whiney cases to be more effective when the list is longer...? :p.

also, i gave blood today.. in a blood connection bus. they parked behind work. actually, i was still on the clock while i gave blood. so i sort of got paid for doing it..harhar. quite a treat. my blood pressure is 102/66.

ohh. my good friend anna has called. i'm going to the park. : )

my oh my

If i were a red orange tea kettle. this is how i'd be. bright like a tomato. i wish i liked tea abit more.. isn't it true that the tea drinker is better off than the ones who drink coffee so much.?

anyway, it's impossible to focus on schoolwork in the summer... or anytime. i'm so ready to be done with it. this upcoming fall i'll be student teaching in a Montessori classroom - which 1) i'm looking forward to, but at the same time 2)dreading and afraid of... it's a lot of work . alot of lesson plans.. the boringish stuff that takes too long.





Also, my sister, sarah, had a baby tonight!!. a baby boy. i'm sure he's strong...and lovely. cannot wait to meet himmm.

Fuzzy Owl.. she holds things like yogurt mixed with orange juice, water, and coffee..

hoot.hooooooot.

after.thought.

sometimes the bugs gross me out..